rewards!!

I am like a child and need rewards when I have done something good.

My something good is losing weight.

My rewards...
-5 Lbs new earrings
-10Lbs a new book
-15 Lbs a new top
-20 Lbs mani pedi
-25 Lbs a new dress
-30Lbs run a 5k
-35 Lbs a day trip to a winery
-40 Lbs massage
-45 Lbs date night with all the glitz
-50 lbs a new dress
-55Lbs new pair of jeans
-60 Lbs a concert in my old jeans from college

sore

I know I have been gone for a while but I am back and lord am I sore.

I've been worked out twice a day all week and my body feels it. But instead of discouraging me its totally encouraging!! My body hurts because I am pushing it. It feels awesome!

Also I totally gave up soda Monday and I feel great! No soda more fruits and vegetables!

stress and my eating

Well there is nothing more stressful in my life then the first few weeks of school. Hek even my wedding was not as stressful. So needless to say my eating habits have been horrible this last month.

The other trigger is my husband is in school Monday and Wednesday nights so I notice I over eat those nights out of boredom and over snacking.

My goal this new month of September is to walk those nights my husband is at school and to stop snacking and not to eat in front of the TV.

Also I may do the dirty run at the end of September and I want to do race for the cure in October to honor my grandmother.

confessions

This week has been really hard. I have exhausted by getting my room ready for school. My husband who is a firefighter, has had calls all week and last weekend for big fires. So he hasn't been home and I find myself over eating and not exercising at the first sign of stress.

Yesterday I had twice as many calories as I normally do, I got Starbucks and went to a workshop where they catered the food so I ate more for lunch than I ever do.

I am discouraged and tired. And school starts tomorrow. I don't want to fall into my old patterns again. I have woken up late all this week so I have had to eat my yogurt in the car and no yoga.

And we bought a new scale and I have gained weight since Saturday. I am so discouraged.

But tomorrow is another day and I am going to bed early to get good rest for tomorrow.

feet are not my enemy

Dear lord people do not even know how bad it is for teachers setting up their rooms. Getting so much done in a short amount of time is hard work. Plus climbing on stuff and being on your feet for 7 hrs takes a toll. My neck and feet take the brunt of the pain.

Needless to say I think my sweating and run up and down the hallway for people and things count as my workout today.

But yesterday my eating was tested I got a chicken wrap from chick-fila and fries. I ate too much and my body let me know.

I am really working on learning when I am full and when I am thirsty

******** Great note I lost 2 lbs this week!!

and school is about to start again

Well today was the first day back at school. I was able to meet new kids and hang out with my teacher friends. But with the excitement of the new school year comes some old habits.

Eating breakfast in the car on the way to school. Passing the old McDonald's that i would stop at occasionally to feed my desire of a sausage biscuit. But today i sat down and made some goals for this school year.

1. Wake up at least 45 before i have to leave.
2. My morning yoga
3. Eat breakfast at home.
4. Do my make up at home not in the car.
5. Pray each morning.

I want to work on all of these things.

I am still working on eating only when i am hungry. I have had 1078 calories today. I plan on eating at least 200 more this evening.

learning

So we just got home from vacation. Its a beautiful thing, vacation that is
 I also lost 4 lbs over vacation. Which was very hard in my grandma's house when I was trying to refuse 2nd and 3rds on dessert. But I really worked hard this week to listen to my body. If I was hungry I ate, if I was full I stopped.

This sounds like such an easy concept  but its not for me. I am an emotional eater. If I am stressed I eat, if I am I eat, if I am happy I eat. And I am not eating fruits and vegetables. I am finding a drive thru, a Starbucks, or the left over ice cream in the frig.

I am worked on making sure I sit down and enjoy my food. Today I ate out twice, our plane left at 6:30 so we grabbed a sausage biscuit before. I listened to my body and ate only half of it. At lunch we had chickfila, i ordered what i wanted a Caesar grilled chicken wrap and at half. I want to really listen to my body and respond in a healthy way.

I am working  on the emotional eating.

traveling

today I traveled from my hometown to my grandparents house. Traveling is hard. I am hungry all the time and the food available is not good. I planned so I ate light in the morning but I still had about 1900 calories. I am not going to beat myself up but I am going to learn and try to plan ahead better.

scales

I have a bone to pick with you mister! Yes you mister scale! At the dr office you weigh me 15 lbs heavier than my home scale! 15 Lbs! And I weighed at night I i have eaten all my calories for today which by the way I ate in my margin today, 1233 calories.

Ok my next bone to pick is my in laws scale weighs me 5 lbs than my home scale!!! A whole 20 lbs less than the doctors scale.

So here's the question which one do I believe. When I stepped on the doctors scale the lady told me it weighs higher than other scales. But seriously which one do I believe.

I choose my in laws, I like have a 20 lb start on my weight loss.

my mission for the month of August

I read this great article years ago in Self magazine, it was about a woman on her weightloss journey. She talked about how she would walk daily with her new born child and she would pass this bakery with the most amazing brownies. Daily she would want to stop by and grab one and she told herself everyday "this is the last one! I will reward myself this one last time then I will never get one again." As we all know as non successful doeters we all justify anything as "the last one," "I will never want it again," "tomorrow i will start after this last..."

This is where the woman's mindset changed.

Instead of thinking of it as the last one ever, she began to tell herself she can have it tomorrow. Its not off limits but that she will forego it today and she can have it tomorrow. After she had success with one day, when she passed the bakery the next day she was able to forego the brownie one more day. Finally she had one and she was able to enjoyit because she had taught herself how to say not now but later.

This is the principle i want to learn in my life this month. I am not going to deprive myself but i am not going to have one last meal. I am not going to justify anything by saying its the last time I am going to eat it. Cause lets not kid ourselves.

day one

I ate 1300 calories today, I had 4 servings of fruits and vegetables, 6 glasses of water and my husband I went for a walk/jog in the park.

Today was a good day but I also went to the doctor for an eye issue and I weighed out in the hallway and the lady couldn't read the scale and when I tried to whisper the number to her she just said... Huh? What? So I ended up having to announce to the whole office my weight. It was a classic Seinfeld moment of utter contempt and humiliation.

So today is the day that I promise to never see that number ever again.

my first post

I am super excited to get back to my fighting weight. Now my definition of fighting weight is to weigh what I weighed when I met my husband. I was definitely not super skinny then but I was at a weight I was comfortable with. Now I have gained roughly 55 lbs due to lack of exercise and my husbands love of eating out. When I first started dating him, I was running daily competing in triathlons and wore a size 12. now to many that might be large but for me, my butt is twice the size of my top so i was wearing a 12 on bottom and small to medium on top. This 50 lb transition has taken place over three years and i would like to take a year to get back down. I am a school teacher and mom of the cutest Chihuahua known to man. I would like to become a mom in the next few years but want to give my babies a healthy start with a healthy mom. So this is were i begin.