confessions

This week has been really hard. I have exhausted by getting my room ready for school. My husband who is a firefighter, has had calls all week and last weekend for big fires. So he hasn't been home and I find myself over eating and not exercising at the first sign of stress.

Yesterday I had twice as many calories as I normally do, I got Starbucks and went to a workshop where they catered the food so I ate more for lunch than I ever do.

I am discouraged and tired. And school starts tomorrow. I don't want to fall into my old patterns again. I have woken up late all this week so I have had to eat my yogurt in the car and no yoga.

And we bought a new scale and I have gained weight since Saturday. I am so discouraged.

But tomorrow is another day and I am going to bed early to get good rest for tomorrow.

feet are not my enemy

Dear lord people do not even know how bad it is for teachers setting up their rooms. Getting so much done in a short amount of time is hard work. Plus climbing on stuff and being on your feet for 7 hrs takes a toll. My neck and feet take the brunt of the pain.

Needless to say I think my sweating and run up and down the hallway for people and things count as my workout today.

But yesterday my eating was tested I got a chicken wrap from chick-fila and fries. I ate too much and my body let me know.

I am really working on learning when I am full and when I am thirsty

******** Great note I lost 2 lbs this week!!

and school is about to start again

Well today was the first day back at school. I was able to meet new kids and hang out with my teacher friends. But with the excitement of the new school year comes some old habits.

Eating breakfast in the car on the way to school. Passing the old McDonald's that i would stop at occasionally to feed my desire of a sausage biscuit. But today i sat down and made some goals for this school year.

1. Wake up at least 45 before i have to leave.
2. My morning yoga
3. Eat breakfast at home.
4. Do my make up at home not in the car.
5. Pray each morning.

I want to work on all of these things.

I am still working on eating only when i am hungry. I have had 1078 calories today. I plan on eating at least 200 more this evening.

learning

So we just got home from vacation. Its a beautiful thing, vacation that is
 I also lost 4 lbs over vacation. Which was very hard in my grandma's house when I was trying to refuse 2nd and 3rds on dessert. But I really worked hard this week to listen to my body. If I was hungry I ate, if I was full I stopped.

This sounds like such an easy concept  but its not for me. I am an emotional eater. If I am stressed I eat, if I am I eat, if I am happy I eat. And I am not eating fruits and vegetables. I am finding a drive thru, a Starbucks, or the left over ice cream in the frig.

I am worked on making sure I sit down and enjoy my food. Today I ate out twice, our plane left at 6:30 so we grabbed a sausage biscuit before. I listened to my body and ate only half of it. At lunch we had chickfila, i ordered what i wanted a Caesar grilled chicken wrap and at half. I want to really listen to my body and respond in a healthy way.

I am working  on the emotional eating.