traveling

today I traveled from my hometown to my grandparents house. Traveling is hard. I am hungry all the time and the food available is not good. I planned so I ate light in the morning but I still had about 1900 calories. I am not going to beat myself up but I am going to learn and try to plan ahead better.

scales

I have a bone to pick with you mister! Yes you mister scale! At the dr office you weigh me 15 lbs heavier than my home scale! 15 Lbs! And I weighed at night I i have eaten all my calories for today which by the way I ate in my margin today, 1233 calories.

Ok my next bone to pick is my in laws scale weighs me 5 lbs than my home scale!!! A whole 20 lbs less than the doctors scale.

So here's the question which one do I believe. When I stepped on the doctors scale the lady told me it weighs higher than other scales. But seriously which one do I believe.

I choose my in laws, I like have a 20 lb start on my weight loss.

my mission for the month of August

I read this great article years ago in Self magazine, it was about a woman on her weightloss journey. She talked about how she would walk daily with her new born child and she would pass this bakery with the most amazing brownies. Daily she would want to stop by and grab one and she told herself everyday "this is the last one! I will reward myself this one last time then I will never get one again." As we all know as non successful doeters we all justify anything as "the last one," "I will never want it again," "tomorrow i will start after this last..."

This is where the woman's mindset changed.

Instead of thinking of it as the last one ever, she began to tell herself she can have it tomorrow. Its not off limits but that she will forego it today and she can have it tomorrow. After she had success with one day, when she passed the bakery the next day she was able to forego the brownie one more day. Finally she had one and she was able to enjoyit because she had taught herself how to say not now but later.

This is the principle i want to learn in my life this month. I am not going to deprive myself but i am not going to have one last meal. I am not going to justify anything by saying its the last time I am going to eat it. Cause lets not kid ourselves.

day one

I ate 1300 calories today, I had 4 servings of fruits and vegetables, 6 glasses of water and my husband I went for a walk/jog in the park.

Today was a good day but I also went to the doctor for an eye issue and I weighed out in the hallway and the lady couldn't read the scale and when I tried to whisper the number to her she just said... Huh? What? So I ended up having to announce to the whole office my weight. It was a classic Seinfeld moment of utter contempt and humiliation.

So today is the day that I promise to never see that number ever again.

my first post

I am super excited to get back to my fighting weight. Now my definition of fighting weight is to weigh what I weighed when I met my husband. I was definitely not super skinny then but I was at a weight I was comfortable with. Now I have gained roughly 55 lbs due to lack of exercise and my husbands love of eating out. When I first started dating him, I was running daily competing in triathlons and wore a size 12. now to many that might be large but for me, my butt is twice the size of my top so i was wearing a 12 on bottom and small to medium on top. This 50 lb transition has taken place over three years and i would like to take a year to get back down. I am a school teacher and mom of the cutest Chihuahua known to man. I would like to become a mom in the next few years but want to give my babies a healthy start with a healthy mom. So this is were i begin.